It’s been a long time to post.

Well after looking at my blog and seeing the last time I posted anything.

There has been so much that has happened since my last post of January 11, 2008.

I am going to try to recall as much as I can here.

I just recently had a brake through this past Feb 2009 with the loss of my father.  See my mother didn’t have a furneral / cermony.  And I did not get any closure. I pretty much had a system shut down. On the urge of having a nervous brake down. And I did not tend to my duties/website(s) maintance.

My uncle Larry passed away Jan 25th, 2008. From what my aunt Betty said, he had been having slight chest pains, and breathing problems/issues.  He had a massive heart attack.  He was DOA on the way to the hospital.

For myself I have been seeing a chiropractor on and off who has been so amazing and has helped with my pain issues. I am not sure if I had mentioned what the cause of my pain has been. But I have a torn ligament in my left shoulder. Which is/was/ and now is happening again.  I have to get back to the chiropractor again to get my pain managed again.

I had some tooth pains and Jan 26th I took 2 sleeping pills and those did not help at all. I got up early and got online and looked for a local dentist.  In short, the tooth which had a root canal 22 years ago was cracked and could not be saved. So the dentist pulled that tooth.  (Which was one day before my 41th birthday.)  I also had to get an MRI that same day.  Which was not pleasant at all. I was bleeding and swallowing blood in the MRI tube and my nose was 1/2′ away from the top.  I am not normally claustrophobic,  that experience had surely made me a claustrophobe.

I also have a new condition called “Hoffman Sign”. What happens here is the core of my spin the C5 gets inflamed and spine bones swell up and pinch the nerves and that causes my right arm to get numb from my shoulder to the tip of my index finger.  Which makes it hard to even move let alone type.  It seems that this happens when we get dry and windy weather.

My niece Jamie graduated high school. And hopes to start college soon.  But in my honest opinion, I don’t see this happening now. As she got pregnant and had a baby girl on Jan 25th, 2009.

As of this month April 2009 I have decided to file bankruptcy. I just can’t keep living the way I am, do to issues that got way out of control. This is what happend. A month before my father passed away. He asked me to help him out with his massive medical bills. And I could not tell him no. So I put a small portion of his massive medical bills on my credit cards. As the saying goes “hein sight is 20/20.”  If I knew that he would have passed away a month later I would have said no I can’t do that. After all the Dr’s told him and us that he was 100% cancer free.  And with my internet business taking a hit in these economic times it has made it hard to stay current on all my bills and medical bills. So I have just stoped paying on my credit cards and save up funds to file bankruptcy. I can’t keep living on $25 a month after most of the montly bills have been paid.

It really is amazing that the population of people in the town I live in do not want a website for their personal or business use.  I have tried to get myself out of this economic slump.  I have sent out fliers and  basically went door to door as well as cold calling out of my local yellow pages.  Just to ring up some web clients.  And with my current promotion I can’t seem to give a free 5 page web design plus a blog to the population of this town. I called 1000 businesses out of the phone book and not one company interested. On top of the 5000 door to door solicits.  I should have easily been able to get 10% of the 6000 businesses I met and called.  But not one sale from any of it.  This town really does not embrace technology what so ever. And that is a real shame.
Let me fisrt set this up.

See I had a dream Jan 7th 2001 where my grandparents on both my mother and fathers side and my aunt Marry (My fathers youngest sister) came to be in this dream. And they said there would be a cure for Muscular Dystrophy on Jan 7th, 2010.  (I hope it is real…And just not a dream.) This dream over the past 8 years has been keeping me going.

And after my last visit in 1996 to the MDA ORG. Which did not go well. I created my Muscular Dystrophy SMA III web site out of anger. http://www.celestialnet.com/mdusa/ and the mirror site is http://www.celestialnet.com/sma3

The site has changed over the years. I had someone email me out of the blue one day in 1996 from my little website. His name was Brad Pittman.  We became very good friends over the internet, and had many instant message chats.  Seeing how I could not really talk to family or friends about this disease.  Simply because my family and friends do not have this form of Muscular Dystrophy called SMA-III (SMA Type 3), and they didn’t and still really do not understand it.

Brad could not use his manual wheel chair any more do to his arm strength was not strong enough to wheel himself around on his own power.  So some time in 2001 he gave me that manual wheel chair. Which I still have, and use once in a great while.

I went to KY and visited him and his family in Sept 2006 and was there for I think was his 52nd birthday.  Click this link. Brad Pittman (I took this picture while visiting.)

It was an honer to have met the man that was a near and dear friend, and was a shoulder for me when I needed it, as well as I lent him my shoulder over the years we knew each other.

Brad under went  some medical issues called diverticulitis. And he passed away on Jan 8th 2009.  Which was 1 day after the one year mark to when this dream is supposed to come true. (Hopefully)

I felt uneasy this past Jan 7th 2009 and woke up early and checked my email. Which is something I don’t do normally. See I have a rule I dont get on the computer until I have had my morning shower.

And I saw this email in my inbox from Brads son Billy.

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Sent: Thursday, January 08, 2009 7:47 AM

Subject: This is Brad’s son Billy

Hey Rick,

This is Billy, Brad Pittman’s son, I am not sure if dad had told you he was going to the hospital or not but he went Dec. 16th to the one here in Lebanon, they transferred him to Louisville one week later…he died this morning (thurs.the 8th) around 4:30am.

He went to the hospital back on Dec. 16th because of that hurting in his side, he had been hurting for quite some time and should of went months ago, but you know how stubborn he was. By the time he went he had been bound up for so long they said his body had become toxic. He had a blockage in his colon and they wanted to give him colostomy, but said they would have to build his strength up before he could under go the operation, and being put under. Well they waited 4 or 5 days and said that he was just not gaining strength fast enough and before his colon burst they were going to have to go ahead and do the operation.

Well he did not start breathing on his own afterwords and had to be put on a ventilator,which he hated.They took him off of it the next morning and he done fine for a few hours then had to be put back on it and sent to Louisville. His kidnies shut down the sunday before last and he had to go on dialysis.

He started breathing on his own this past weekend and they took the ventilator off monday evening, that night he stopped breathing and they had to put an oxygen mask on him, the next day they asked him if he wanted to continue with the ventilator if needed he said no, they asked him if he wanted to continue with the dialysis he again said no. So he knew that it was the end I’m sure .

I know dad thought alot of you Rick. I am glad that you were in his life for the past few years, you definatly brought a little happiness to his life.

~~Billy

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I was and am still really devistated by the loss my very near and dear friend Brad.  The world will surely be a smaller place without him in it.

Well thats about it for now. I will try to blog more.

Thanks for your time.

I’m heavly medicated

Well it just seems to get worse. I had a good day yesterday. But today is pretty hard. I miss sleeping in my own bed. I have been sleeping in my desk chair in my home office. I can’t get any relief when sleeping in bed. And for whatever reason it seems the pain magnifies when I try sleeping in the bed. It takes so much energy to even work. My left shoulder and arm draws up on me. I get a shooting pain all the way down from my shoulder to the tip of my thumb.

I was featured in my local newspaper this past Monday. I wish it was featured online. I would post the link. I am going to have to scan it and post it on my site. I am a bit disappointed in my community has not bought any pixels from my e-swapmeets site.

I called my bank and asked them if they offer help within the community. So I gave them some copies of my newspaper article. Maybe they will copy them off and have them inside the bank. I really need to get something going with selling those pixels.

I don’t think that medicare will cover my shoulder surgery. Thats why I am trying to push the site.

I also listed it on ebay today. I am not looking for handouts. I am offering a service to get the funds that I need to pay my medical bills.

Well I feel a nap coming on. Need to take what sleep I can when I can get it.

First post on new design

This is my first post on the redesign of my SMA3 web site.

Well it has been a hell of a week.  I got the MRI CD today.  And my Dr got the results and wants me to see him next Wed.  I couldn’t really wait a week to get an answer. So I called and asked the nurse to have the Dr call me or at least tell me what the problem is.  Just to not stress myself out thinking the worse.  We all do that.

My left shoulder has a torn ligament.  I called my aunt, she is a retired BIO Chem lab scientist. She told me that a torn ligament is more painful then having a broken bone.  It really is. I have had broken bones, and this pain has kept me awake for hours upon hours for the past 12 days now.  I get maybe 1-3 hours of sleep daily.

Anyhow this has been my day.

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